No pictures to post, just randomness.
As I realize that I have only one week until we move, it is getting more difficult to prepare to say goodbye. I am crying much more easily these days. My house doesn't look like my house anymore. I am super scared about the really cold winters that N.D. gets. I don't feel ready to be so far apart from our extended family. I am afraid that I won't have as good of friends as those that I have right now. Can you sense that I am seriously afraid over what is happening?
And yet, even with all these nerve racking emotions that I have been feeling lately, I trust my Heavenly Father. I know that He is aware of my family and is helping us through this change. I sat in the temple today and enjoyed the peace of that sacred place. As I waited to go into the Celestial room I had the words to the hymn, "I'll Go Where You Want Me To Go" come into my mind. I thought about my ancestors who left their homes to cross the plains. I feel that in a small way I can now relate to the pain of that experience. As the journey may be rough, I trust that there may be times when I might feel the angels helping to push me along, giving me their strength to continue on. I want to be like my ancestors. I want to go where the Lord wants me to go! I want to follow the still small voice that gives the assurance that even with leaving my precious home and the many people I love and care so much about behind, it will be worth the lessons that will be learned in the journey we are facing. Thank goodness for a knowledge that there is eternity and that this life is a brief moment in that time frame! Thank goodness for the gospel! Thank goodness for prayer! Thank goodness there is a temple in Bismarck! Thank goodness for my family! Can I really do this? With the Lord's help, I know I can!
